posted on Wednesday, May 18, 2011
i shouldn't be here. i should seriously be getting some shit done but i can't not say goodbye to my blog. like how i'm having to say goodbye to so many things. gosh, just too many things have happened. guitar, guitar guitar, what would i do without guitar? how would i have turned out? i never thought it would mean so much to me. and yet, a year has past and i'm handing all of it over to a new batch. at the end of four years in red cross and two years in council, i didn't feel as much as i do now after a year of guitar. all that slogging and crying and worrying and the extra frown lines that will probably show up soon, it was all worth it. from the christmas concert, to the school performances with screwed up acoustics in the hall, the competition and syf rehearsals, syf itself and the heartbreaking disappointment after, and glissando, oh glissando. after so long of being closed off, guitar taught me to breathe again. it taught me to feel and to show i feel, instead of giving that dead-pan face. i honestly think it brought back my laughter. and, maybe not the light, but a tiny sparkle of that girl who i used to be. it's been teaching me to care again. and i'm grateful for the people who helped make it happen. i don't know what i'd do with the friends i've made and who've reminded me of who i used to be and help bring that girl back.
posted on Tuesday, February 01, 2011
you're drifting away, i know. but there's nothing more i can do. i've tried and i still try but you just don't fucking care, do you? we don't talk like we used to hell, we don't talk at all. i've run out of conversation topics and questions to ask and jokes to tell. i'd like to try to tell you what's going on with my life and ask about yours but you're just not a part of my life anymore. and as much as i try to keep you part of it, it will only just annoy and bother you. like some chore, some obligation to this girl you used to know. so okay, i get it. people change. and i've done some pretty drastic changing back and forth, i don't expect you to get into that, but could you at least reply my texts? oh god, that sounds so effing petty. like some needy, attention-seeking retard. but you know that's the only form of communication we have. if i stop, we'll just slip into strangers. and you know that deep down, you have to know by now, that all i'm really trying to do is what we promised to from the start; i'm just trying to keep in touch.
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you're so fucking concerned with listening to your own view that you can't hear anyone else
posted on Sunday, January 09, 2011
"sometimes i just don't know if ac and ki was the right choice" - 27/6
but now i know it is. a right choice isn't what it is because good things happen or because it necessarily advances your position in life, benefits you in the most obvious way. this choice is what it is because a part of me still need to grow up and learn to cope away from home, away from safety and security. it is the right choice because some way or another, whether i'm fully able to believe it or not, God brought me to it. now i've got to make the most of it. ac may never be able to give me the same warm fuzzy feeling that ij did but why should i expect that? it shouldn't stop me from feeling affiliation to it. ki may be a departure from things and it may be scary at times, it may drive me crazy at times and it may be a challenge but, but what? i chose it. and i hate how blame it all so easily on a subject. like my faith was never strong enough to withstand the probing. i hate how you twisted all the things i told you to fit your little delusion. i hate how you did it behind my back. i hate how i trusted you with my thoughts. well, reality bites. you were never really trustworthy. poor judgement on my part. but ki has made me realise a whole lot of things and so far, i've been ready to accept them and change my views about somethings. but it's only been a year. this year, it's ethics. and i've been praying that i can get through this alive. maybe my pride may take quite a lashing, my thoughts and assumptions and beliefs might get muddied, my sense may be twisted and turned into a jumble, my faith may be trampled on but hopefully, i recover.
You said to lean on Your arm, and i am leaning; You said to trust in Your love, and i am trusting; You said to call on Your name, and i am calling; i'm stepping out on Your word.
-Maya Angelou
Briane by Boyce Avenue
posted on Thursday, November 18, 2010
you're ashamed about all your fears and doubts; of how i hurt you can you make it back from the aftermath; and how i left you nobody wants to be alone with the fear of letting go if you could hear me say it's gonna be okay, would you be okay?
and though i've gone away i still see what you're going through it kills me everyday to know i killed what meant most to you so when you pass my grave leave a rose for what might have been but know that it's okay to shed your fears and find love again.
for better, worse you're the one i never thought i'd hurt. but looking back on these dreams if nothing is what it seems know that you'll wake up to better things
and though i've gone away i still see what you're going through it kills me every day to know i killed what meant most to you so when you pass my grave leave a rose for what might have been but know that it's okay to shed your fears and find love again.
i hear you say: i dont know how and i don't know why but there will come one day when i will tell you all the things inside just know there's someone above here to help you
and though i've gone away i still see what you're going through it kills me every day to know i killed what meant most to you so when you pass my grave leave a rose for what might have been but know that it's okay to shed your fears and find love again.
- Briane, Boyce Avenue
posted on Friday, October 15, 2010
i feel like being a bitch. haven't been one in quite a while
posted on Monday, September 06, 2010
i don't think i've ever spammed my own mind (and stomach) with so much rubbish. bad movies galore. hahaha. i've effectively wasted a lot of my holiday already watching: taylor swift music videos maroon 5 music videos (i didn't even bother to finish watching some of them.) when in rome letters to juliet valentine's day the covenant the last one was for toby hemingway. hahaha. there are a lot of cute guys in that movie, i'll admit. letters was just crap. really bad. valentine's day was... okay. the cute lil blond kid got to me. hahaha.
need need need to start work. but i just really want a break. i want this holiday to be one. i want to sleep well and have fun. i want to stop having to give up all this time for this stupid rat race, and progressive inflation of qualifications. all this time; it's supposed to belong to me. it was meant to be time away from all this shit. when did i sell my soul and life for a future as a slave to the system?
posted on Monday, August 09, 2010
If thou could'st empty all thyself of self, Like to a shell disinhabited, Then might He find thee on the ocean shelf, And say, "This is not dead," And fill thee with Himself instead.
But thou art all replete with very thou And hast such shrewd activity, That when He comes He says, "This is enow Unto itself - 'twere better let it be, It is so small and full, there is no room for Me."
~Sir Thomas Browne
posted on Friday, July 30, 2010
i don't know why it still is. but i can't help it.
i've tried and tried to say what's on my mind. but it always gets too close - and i recoil. i flinch, i shrink into myself. some psycho analysis might suggest it stems from a deep need to protect myself. but i'm tired of that, that fear. because it seems that the only way i know how to protect myself is to distance and cut off people from my life. it's it's just what i've been doing for the past year and a half.
and soon it will be 2 years. and i will be
posted on Saturday, July 10, 2010
talking to cass the other day before pe made me realise a lot of things, and just how stupid i've been.
maybe it was because i knew what it meant and i wanted that. i wanted things to be so different. maybe it was because all along i thought it could be an exception this time. but we're just the rule.
but there was something she said that i wish she didn't. because it's given me false hope before i've even fully given up. and i shouldn't be thinking still, i shouldn't keep wishing, but deep down i want to be convince that this time it mattered and this time it was real.
coming alive
posted on Sunday, July 04, 2010
friday was great. even though it rained, and i was late (we were supposed to meet at 4.30 but i pushed it back to 5.30 and i only managed to get there at 6) and so many were coming late, friday was great. and it was all thanks to (roughly in order of arrival) caroline, emily, joanne, daffy, jane, sam, mary ann, wendy, baba and beatrice *counts the names* yes, right. 11 of us. hahaha. ate at carl's jr and practically cordoned off a whole section for ourselves. of course we took the area with the high chairs for our vertically challenged friends, and it also happened to be the section closest to the drinks :D so there we were, cutting up burgers, shooting insults at each other, listening to beatrice's bad chinese, bullying the midgets, refilling out drinks with the wrong tea(okay, maybe that was just me), mixing strange concoctions to make what daffy calls high juice and camwhoring. what can i say, we're family :D then off to find dessert while mang went on her camera spree. ended up at swenses'. yay, squashed ourselves at a table meant for about 8. headed for home at about... 10+? maybe 11. camwhoring on the train was quite hard with somebody's short arms. hahaha. it was like finding myself again. but it scares me that i'm so dependent upon the security of familiar company to bring out who i am. i don't remember being like this previously. i miss ij. but it's so great that after not seeing each other since... feb or march, we still come together like we've been going to the same school all the while. it's not that we're too comfortable with each other. we just are. comfortable. with each other.
and back to reality, terms sucked big time and i have chinese oral on tuesday. life is great. it's just school that sucks.
posted on Thursday, July 01, 2010
Set me free why don't-cha baby Get out my life why don't-cha baby Cause' you don't really love me You just keep me hangin' on (ohh ohh) You don't really need me But you keep me hangin' on Why do you keep on comin' around Playing with my heart Why don't you get out of my life And let me make a new start Let me get over you The way you've gotten over me (hey) Set me free why don't-cha baby Let me be why don't-cha baby Cause' you don't really love me You just keep me hangin' on (ohh ohh) No you don't really want me You just keep me hangin' on You say though we broke up You still wanna be just friends But how can we still be friends When seeing you only breaks my heart again And there ain't nothing I can do about it (Whoa whoa whoa) Set me free why don't-cha baby Get out my life why don't-cha baby You don't really love me But just keep me hangin' on You claim you still care for me But your heart still needs to be free Now that you've got your freedom You wanna still hold on to me You don't want me for all yourself So let me find somebody yes (hey hey) Why don't-cha be a man about it And set me free Now, you don't care a thing about me You just use me (ohh ohh) Go on, get out, get out of my life And let me sleep at night, please Cause you don't really love me You just keep me hangin' on
posted on Monday, June 21, 2010
I don’t know you But I want you All the more for that
Words fall through me And always fool me And I can’t react
And games that never amount To more than they’re meant Will play themselves out
Take this sinking boat and point it home We’ve still got time Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice You’ll make it now
Falling slowly, eyes that know me And I can’t go back Moods that take me and erase me And I’m painted black You have suffered enough And warred with yourself It’s time that you won
Take this sinking boat and point it home We’ve still got time Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice You’ve made it now Falling slowly sing your melody I’ll sing along
it's so strange how sometimes just when i think i've found the perfect song for someone, it seems to turn around. and it ends up that that one person is singing this to me. i can almost hear it.
posted on Friday, June 11, 2010
okay. i did not do my homework in the end.
but i just feel so restless. i neeeed to get out and have fun. grrrr.
girls just wanna have fun
posted on Saturday, June 05, 2010
i must start doing my work tmr.
so now i must seize the day. hahaha. it's been really busy and will continue this way till after terms. whoo. the last week of term was a nightmare. but some of it was fun. like the dinner with dad's friends which took quite a while to get from awkward to fun. staying up till 4am to finish my ki essay before pre-u sem however, was not fun. and i am going to fail it. this sucks.
but pre-u sem totally made up for that lousy week :D awesome groupmates and memories, awesome speakers like pm lee and thaddeus lawrence, awesome jokes and lame pick-up lines and awesome ij girls that went too! it was great seeing fran, marian and grassy (: not so awesome: court shoes that cause blisters and aches, a wayy-too-big formal attire skirt, warm weather, messy hair that needs to be cut and getting cut by someone's heels. plus, getting sabotaged by my groupmates. but that's an embarrassing story for another time. heh. all the little retarded things that my group did still crack me up. like singkapore, camwhoring (new olympic sport!), the groups; the sisterhood of ice lemon tea, agf, aa.. and ohemgeee, scandals! hahaha. love group 18, seriously. even though i only got all the names right on like, the 4th day? heh. prior to that i was calling people by their school - nj! ri! or just, eh you! learning journey to a hospital was not so fun. but doing the reflections after that was! :D crapping and making so much noise. plus drawing butterflies? ahahaha.
meritocracy ftw.
posted on Tuesday, May 25, 2010
i'm tired and i'm crying and i'm so fcking pissed off. and all you can do is tell me about your frigging tests and how YOU have no life? i'm the idiot with no life because i keep trying to hold us together. i'm so sick and tired of trying for you when you don't give a damn. i tried. i tried so many times. and i even felt bad for getting mad at you but i don't now. can you just stop being the problem and try solving this one? forget it, don't even try. that way we can both stop and there won't be a problem. because there won't be an 'us' anymore. screw you, seriously. don't come around acting like i shouldn't expect you to revolve around our friendship when your the ass who's doing that to me, making me change and re-organise and re-plan everything. so let's get this straight. you are not the centre of my universe. and i'm sorry. i mistook you for someone else "someone who gave a damn, somebody more like myself" and to think that i spent so much time, overshot my sms limit again and inconvenienced my friends for this shit.
posted on Thursday, May 20, 2010
i'm so pissed off. i just feel like letting it rip. screaming at everyone. i hate thursdays. nothing ever goes right i hate chinese. it's such a burden i hate econs and math. they're a complete waste of my time. i hate you. for making me feel like nothing, nobody all the time i hate that i can't go for ij fiesta and that it's being made worse by some people i hate it when you keep bothering me for your own selfish reasons. go screw yourself, seriously.
posted on Thursday, May 06, 2010
nianci's fb post made me remember the song.
I was sure by now That You would have reached down And wiped our tears away Stepped in and saved the day But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls I barely hear Your whisper through the rain "I'm with you" And as You mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm And I will life my hands For You are who You are No matter where I am Every tear I've cried You hold in Your hand You never left my side And though my heart is torn I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind You heard my cry You raised me up again My strength is almost gone How can I carry on If I can't find You
As the thunder rolls I barely hear You whisper through the rain "I'm with you" And as Your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives And takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills Where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord The Maker of Heaven and Earth
such a beatiful song.
posted on Sunday, May 02, 2010
it has been a very good birthday weekend. yes. time to elaborate.
starting with friday.
submitted the blasted PI. FINALLY. so relieved. after an entire week of not sleeping properly and falling ill. enjoyed archery during pe even though i suck quite badly. hahaha. i think the week before was just beginners luck. hung out at the bleachers with classmates. talking about all sorts of nonsense and laughing and screaming. then we went to al ameen to eat dinner. waiting for the bus and the bus ride was super fun. hahaha. got to sleeeeep.
saturday! math tuition. judith woke me up at 915 asking if i was going for tuition at 9... i went at 11. came home, bummed around. went to church(: we went to centrepoint. ate at astons and ate something called the superburger. it was figgin huge. and, i almost finished it kay. i know i'm a pig. let's move on. bought the black shirt that i need for the guitart concert next saturday which is preventing me from going for aep reunion. that aside, bumbling about with jie was fun. she gave me my present at 12 midnight. it's a book! plato and the platypus. a joke book on philosophy. hahaha. just what i need. it's super cute.
sunday woke up late again. dim sum lunch! i got to order. hahaha. which i know i suck at cause i take ages when it comes to deciding on food. got to slack around and read my books and cute messages from friends. and i have a cheesecake in the fridge! :D looking forward to breakfast tmr. maybe i should go do my work now so that i can go out again tmr. hmmm. yes yes. i should. hahaha.
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417th post.
my 17th birthday is turning out to be so much better than my 16th :D
this entire weekend is good(:
and i'm so grateful i have such wonderful friends. and a sweet sister. and funny parents. only that, they don't know they're funny.
thank you God.
i really miss her today.
posted on Monday, April 26, 2010
i see it now. i see how we're pulling apart, pushing away
and i don't like it. i've poured out so much effort to try and keep this together without annoying you, without encroaching into your life, but you don't care. you just leave it there for the wind to carry away.
i've focussed so much on not forgetting you that i've blocked off other people from coming into my life. why do i keep doing that?
posted on Saturday, April 24, 2010
i'm always distracted on weekends. there is no hope of finishing all my homework this weekend. or starting on my beliefs essay. darn.
we started on archery in pe! :D and i'm not that bad at it. i just took a bit longer to get it. hahaha. at least i made it to the second last round of the lousy competition thing. hahaha. he said we'd get a free drink. but before pe i went to sp to visit beatrice! it took me 20 minutes to get there. i saw her for 10 mins and then she had to go home. then it took me another 20mins to get back. worth it to see her and get my $50 and get treated to a free drink? yes. hahaha. but mainly for the first 2 reasons. i am no longer broke. and i met 2 of her classmates who convinced her to buy a drink for me. green tea. it's been ages since i last drank that.
went to the expensive jap guild house today and ate black seasame ice cream. it's not that bad actually. it just takes a bit to get used to. they have cute chopstick things which hold the tip of the chopstick up. hahaha, i was so tempted to steal it.
i realised the library is nice and quiet when everyone is at gp. very condusive for sleeping :D
just saw the wedding card for waikin & liz's wedding. yay, i am excited and hope that the food will be really good. hahaha.
posted on Friday, April 23, 2010
i'm so annoyed at you right now. i really don't want to fight. i don't want to be snarky. i don't want to end up bitching about you. and i know you find my decisions unpleasant but it's not easy for me to make them either.
i miss it too.
posted on Friday, April 16, 2010
i don't think i've ever missed someone this much.
the first cut isn't the deepest. it just gets worse from there.
come back, come back to me.
i don't think i've ever begged so earnestly for something i know i can't have.
why'd you have to go.
posted on Tuesday, April 13, 2010
a playlist consisting of:
away from the sun - 3 doors down scars - allison iraheta tell me why - taylor swift let it be - katie stevens' version from AI and lots of kris allen; send me all your angels, before we come undone, i need to know. those are the main ones.
i wish i could close my eyes and make it go away
posted on Saturday, April 10, 2010
life needs to retain some sort of noramlity. or does it? i don't mind things changing. just what changes and the way they change/ that, i mind.
but funorama's long over. i seriously failed at scaring people. i was too scared myself. and the light kept dying on me. to all the people who came in and shouted my name when they saw me, oi! you could have at least pretended to be scared! ahaha. and no thanks to those people who took flash photography.
i couldn't really spend time with friends! but thanks anyway to beatrice, steph, daffy, jane, baba, haoteng and yw and all the rest who came. even though not all of yall bought tickets from me, (and as a result i had to pay for those remaining ones) it was nice seeing you guys.
what else? watched remember the titans again. hahaha. couldn't help screaming at the gay scene. love that movie (not because of the gay thing.)
easter virgil! my dad's turn to be a sponsor and godparent to his friend! haha. pass it on, right? so it was st peter and paul. omgosh, we had to be there super early. but we got good seats(: quite close to the ffront. we were actually like, the first row after the reserved pews. the bonfire was kinda wet? yeah, it rained! there was still a slight drizzle when we began. the whole thing was just so long. i don't want to whine, but, i don't remember st iggy's or holy spirit's being that long... maybe it's just me. but the filling of the font in the middle of the readings was... very unglam and distracting! turns out, yunhan was serving mass. i thought i got it wrong cause i wasn't wearing glasses. yeah, we were supposed to be discussing pre-u sem stuff online. hahaa. mang didn't come! ):
oh well. that was the wasted long weekend. i keep missing math tuition. this sucks. i've overslept like 3, 4? times? aiyee, not good. i should get down to work now. hockey match; why'd it have to rain? but met many ij girls. i never realised i'd miss some of them so much. makes you appreciate the small things in life that you always thought were normal.
starting to really hate work. i just don't feel like doing anything. i mean, comeon! it's the weekend! even adults seem to have more time. seriously, i get up earlier and reach home the same time as my dad. okay, the reach home part is only on some days, but still! i hate public transport. stupid people who don't know how to use their God-given legs! they can go screw themselves seriously. i can't believe they had the audacity to give me that look! like it was my fault? i was holding 4 times the amount of stuff they were and struggling to keep balance. urgh, it's just so embarrassing to be singaporean when you're taking the bus. yes, i am still fuming at the stupid people on bus 165 who refused to move to the centre of the bus but stared at me like it was my responsibility to squash myself between them and the seats to get there.
i hate public transport.
posted on Friday, April 09, 2010
i'm going to try to talk about it. because it happened and i'm tired of pretending it's okay or hiding it or ignoring the implications. and i thank megan for giving me the encouragement to do this. it's been a year and almost 4 months.
all this while in my head, my answer to the question "what happened?" was always "life happened." but no, it was death. death that came and took away the past year, death that made my world spin so hard and so fast i didn't know it was spinning till the end of it came and knocked me out cold and hard on what now is ground but was once the opposite.
i'm not proud of these battle scars; just looking at them hurts. but i need to come clean with it; i'm broken. deep down, a lot more than i'll ever want to show. and that's why i keep pushing you away because i can't let you see the mess. i'm not normal. i'm not always okay. i not who i used to be. i'm not anyone right now.
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life feels so screwed up. it passes me by and i don't even bother to catch it. i was wrong about living.
posted on Tuesday, March 30, 2010
someone please tell me what the hell am i doing?
posted on Tuesday, March 23, 2010
i should just say it. i think it's time that i stop avoiding these thoughts.
you don't have to survive it to be triumphant. as long as you have fought the good fight, kept the faith and finished the race yes, i believe that you have won.
i don't believe that she lost that battle. she didn't give up, no not at all. so we paid a very high price, to fight this war with her. and perhaps we still pay it everyday but i can proudly say that we stood by her through all 3 battles; in the process we had our hearts torn, our hopes lost, our health suffered, our confidence, our comfort, our carefree thoughts - all snatched from us but alas, the one thing that could not be taken away; she chose to leave. and i don't blame her for it.
posted on Monday, March 22, 2010
okay, the reason why everybody is blaming jack neo is because it was his damn bloody fault what! it's not the women's fault for stepping out, regardless of their motive, but what he did was down-right despicable and digusting. he is nothing but a toothless rat. shameless as well. i can't believe he suggested to film a bloody movie of the event. have you no sensitivity to his wife's feelings?! or his children for that matter. does he think by doing that it will prove just how sorry he is? what an idiot.
and now i'm going to rant at some innane person. i bet you don't even know. i'm just so sick and tired of this. if you want out, then fine. but i thought it was mutually agreed to keep in touch. yet you shut me out of your life most of the time. it's like you don't want to be part of mine anymore. and that hurts cause i still want you to be. going to different schools doesn't mean i'm going to get a whole new life away from you or anything. are you angry at me or something? cause that's how all your replies (which is not a lot since you ignore most of my questions) sound. i don't want to be angry at you when i don't know what's going on. but that's the problem isn't it. now our lives are so separated and different. i try to tell you things not because i need you to know about my life. but because i want you to, so that you can be part of it and when i expect you to say something about yours you just give some lousy line about how it's as usual. everyday i feel that distance growing and pushing us apart. i can't stand that. especially after i'm sure we both thought there was a really high possibility that we'd be spending these 2 years together. so how can you just drop it like that when i'm still reeling and need that kind of comfort from a friend like you?
oh this is all self-indulgent crap. i can't figure out what exactly makes me so angry at this person, but i still am.
posted on Sunday, March 21, 2010
march holidays suck. they're not even holidays; they're self-cramming periods. and it's exceptional hard on those who have short attention spans. my father says mine is about 2 seconds long. that's nice to know.
anywayyy, i shouldn't have gone out on thursday. but i don't regret it. hahaha. i left the house at about 1030. mom dropped my sister and me off at bishan mrt. was super early to meet baba. we agreed 1130 to watch the 1230 alice in wonderland show at bugisjunction. i was there at 1045? and baba was of course late. hahaha. i told her to look for me in kino when she arrived. but for some reason she smsed me that she was standing outside... hiding behind a sign board. she's a tad too tall to miss. but i love her retardedness. i miss it so much in ac. mang came! alice was quite good i guess. just that i prefer the classic. i still don't like 3d, it gives me headaches and the glasses are super uncomfortable. went shopping after that with the two. they're like twidledee and twiddle dum ((: haha. i just love them. clowning around in j.co before they accompanied me to nlb. my og was kinda supposed to study there but i already suspected none of them would. of course bringing mang and baba wasn't the best idea cause i didn't get any work done with them around either. but it was fun! heee. after they left i went to look for nicolecheong. andd we went to marina square together. we met jerry and renaldy and nicole's uncle... but anyway, we were in the arcade watching jerry and renaldy play some violent game when joanna came. next was erm, who? oh, darren. then we went to starbucks to wait for the rest.
oh! then my mom texted me to tell me i got the scholarship. oh, praise God. that morning i was just lying in bed hindsighting (again) about the interview and thinking "oh crap, i screwed it up." then i went into this 15 min thing where i tried to psycho myself into believing that it wasn't a big deal. oh i am so relieved. and so extremely sorry to those who i poured my anxieties out to; beatrice, ms ong, joey, arielene, jie, judith and all, i'm so sorry i get so agitated!
and back to og dinner - zanhong came. then we went to just acia and talked about all sorts of retarded stuff. oh gosh, we each had to tell an embarrassing story. hahaha. i still think joanna's owns all of ours.
i got back home around 1030 that night. i've given up watching idol. andrew garcia is not good anymore ))):
i have been slacking around this whole holiday. i am so doomed. i just realised i have more chinese homework to do. but chinese isn't due on monday anyway. omg, mass pe is on monday again! i'm going to die. and my classmates have very nicely pointed out that because of funorama prep and good friday, my class is missing swim pe twice. hurrah. i get to delay my embarrassment. andrea was super funny in math tuition today when she found out about our swim pe. she thinks that guys and girls should swim separately. and guys should be banned from wearing speedos in front of girls. hahaha. she's so cute.
maybe it really is time for me to open up and stop judging. i've been so... resistent of late. i keep pushing these things away. so maybe i should stop and let them in because i've reached that stage where it's just up to me if i really want to move on.
posted on Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Yesterday, I woke up With your head on my arm My hand was numb Circulation gone But I dared not move the pretty sleeping one
The sun had painted Patterns on your face As you breathed Sunday air You rolled onto My open arm I became your pillow; you let me smooth your hair
I will sing you morning lullabies You are beautiful and peaceful this way I know you have to close your eyes on everyone Let me help you, I'll sing you to sleep With morning lullabies
Let me lie in the curve Of your body tonight And I will hear you tumble into sleep I will watch you heal, watch you heal with me
I will sing you morning lullabies You are beautiful and peaceful this way I know you have to close your eyes on everyone Let me help you, to sing you sleep With morning lullabies
I know you have to close Your eyes on everyone Let me help you I'll sing you to sleep With morning lulla-bye, bye, baby Close your eyes and I will sing you Morning lullabies And I will sing you Morning lullabies
ingrid michaelson
i love this song
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